It's not you, it's me

That's what you had me believe

My mind battled your poison constantly

Fighting the thoughts that you instilled in me

Carefully, calculated

Oh so craftily

But despite your hard work

I know better now

Because

It wasn't adderall

Or tobacco

It wasn't work

Or alcohol

It wasn't your love for me

Or fear of losing me

It wasn't passion

Or volatility

Or when you ran out of excuses

Grew tired of making amends

Your favorite target

I then became

But despite what you made me believe

That I made you do these things

I'm here to tell you that

I know for certain now

It wasn't them

It wasn't me

It's not me, it's you.