I Was a Small and Trusting Child

I was a smalland trusting childmessy blonde hairblue eyes were wildYou played a gamelike no one elseI was your dollup on your shelfYou took me downput me to bedbut not beforegetting in my headYour eyes were coldbreath of vodkalips like wormshands, fingers rougherAs I lay thereyou turned me overlifted my nightgownmoved your face closerI wasn't scaredthere's my shamebecause you told meit was all a gameAnd as your tonguemade its way upmade its way downI would say stopThe game would endpulled panties upmoved in to kissmy forehead's topAt four years oldnot many peoplecan say they've donesuch awful deeds, thoughI was too youngto know it was wrongyou were too slystringing me alongThis game went onfor a few yearsI never knewit'd bring me tearsThe shame I feltwhen I was fifteenwhen I realizedwhat it all meansI was crushedby the guilttortured memorieshaunt me stillNow you're gonethe problems remainif only, if onlyremembering I could abstainI don't blame myselfbut blame you insteadI should've been lovelybut you fucked up my headMy body is finethe things you don't seemy mind's got a crackhow much worse could it be?You're a monsteran animal, justfor taking my innocencefor breaking my trustThinking of childhoodnightgowns I woreI was your little girlbut you made me your whoreNowadays I'm alrightas much as I can benow you've gotten punishedfor punishing meSo remember to nevertake the innocence ofa loving, small childplease- treat her with love.