Being Back With My Ex

I'm back with him.

And it's not the same

He says he loves me

But I don't think he does

I love him

The memories come back

He left me for her

Just like I was piece of trash

And now he's back

We're together

I love him

He says I'm his only one

He said that to her

I know it's my fault

But how do you forget what made you feel alive

He was there when the nightmares got bad.

888 miles away

He was there when I was hospitalized last year

888 miles away he was there

I know it's my fault

I know it's dumb.

But idk. He's there

But not

He cares

I think...

Feels like I'm trapped

Maybe I'm overthinking.

My family likes him.

I love him

But he broke me