B E A U T I F U L

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Weds, July 25, 2018, 11:48PM

A brief note before reading: I am in recovery. From multiple toxic substances. Alcohol. People Pleasing. The Cycle of Abuse. This is my story. This is my healing as it currently stands. This does not imply that the abuse was my fault. I am making an appeal to the trauma in my body, and to the love that her healing can bring.A LOVE LETTERIt’s all so beautiful, you knowThe wounding, healing, and growth that followsAll of itMy heart and mind are resilient,butMY BODYshe is so tiredhypervigilantedgypanickedexhaustedalertawakemusculartonedfrom the tensionI AM SO SORRY, dear oneYou remember, and you knowYou were my HOME,and I treated you like a landfilltossed asideused upfor someone elsePLEASE FORGIVE MEI will make my offerings to youEvery day,we will sit togetherwe will breathesmudgeprayoiland in time,I will earn it all backYOUR TRUSTYOUR SAFETYYOUR PEACEYOUR BLESSINGto someday,choose again

Heal, Sexual Assaultalanagrowandglowabuse, alcohol, cycle of abuse, forgive, love letter, poem, poetry, recovery, relationships, restoreComment