I Trusted You

When I️ stopped wearing your necklace

It was one less thing to remind me of you

It felt like i was finally free

Free from being connected to you

Free from the torture of constantly being reminded of you because after all you were my very best friend

We told each other everything 

You became my other half 

Until that night you decided to hold me down and ignore my no. Ignored my begging for you to stop.

You held me down and told me how worthless I️ was if I️ didn't put out, how, the only thing that matters is my body, how I'm “a little chubby but that's okay” because you “like a girl with a booty” and you sure as hell loved to grab mine without permission. You told me you were trying to fix me for a future husband because you knew of my previous abuse history. how sick and twisted you are. You took the trust and love I️ gave you, the intimacy in friendship I️ let you see my soul, and then you took it. You not only took yourself away but took me with you. I️ won't ever be the same. Now all that's left is your stains. I️ will always be stained by you, and by the people before you, but mostly you, because the difference is, you I️ trusted.

Bluewriting