Anxiety Attack
Body aches trickle down my spine
Nausea, headaches all the time
Crippled, head over my knees
Mind games that never cease
"Shut up. SHUT UP!" hands over ears
The voices inside won't disappear
Relentlessly playing with me
Replaying the horrors I had to see
Again and again night sweats and fears
He never left and was always here
Cold, salt-filled tears fall down
Body numbed and on the ground
Hands grasp my stomach in pain
Hunched over myself all over again
Can't breathe or catch my breath
Anxiety creeping up my neck
It grabs by the throat and won't let go
Tries to choke me out "God! Oh!"
Screaming out but not heard
All in silence never observed
All I can do is try to sleep
Depleted, mind fucked so deep
Won't shut off because he's there
dark corners of my mind everywhere
Rape relived every time my eyes shut
My body knows he's coming in my gut
Body aches again, anxiety creeping up
Awake or asleep he's always here
Haunting the halls of my mind vividly
Pictures so clear it's almost real
Wait, this is more than a bad dream
"Wake up. WAKE UP!" But I am awake
Graphic images I cannot shake
Mind so loud I just want quiet and peace
Repeating over and over, will not cease
Stomach aches again and cannot stand
Fingers grip my skull to quiet this trend
God's too busy and cannot hear
Screaming, crying out in fear
Still quiet and silence all around
While my mind is a dark playground
I never asked for any of this
But you gave it with a spiteful kiss