I’m looking at pictures of a younger me.

Pictures from a few years ago. I’m looking at pictures of a girl who was being abused back then. It hurts me to see that girl. The saddest part is that I didn’t talk to anybody about it. I was just living two separate lives. I graduated at high school while I was being raped every week. I don’t blame the girl on the photo for not talking about it. I don’t blame her for lying. She was just trying to stay alive. I couldn’t do much more. I couldn’t even think. Everything happened so fast. I don’t remember much of that period. I only remember blaming myself and feeling lonely.

You deserve kindness.

If you’ve experienced any kind of abuse, please don’t blame yourself for acting how you’ve acted. You tried your best. Don’t be so hard on yourself. Be kind to yourself instead. You deserve kindness. No matter what you did or do, you just deserve kindness. May be other people don’t give you kindness but you can give yourself kindness. That’s the least thing you can do. Have some compassion with yourself. Kindness starts here right now. Maybe you cannot stop other people from being mean. But you can stop yourself from being mean to yourself.The girl on the photo in my hand tried her best. It’s time for me to realize that. I don’t blame her anymore. I’m starting to understand my younger self. And I wanted to forgive myself but I just figured out that there is nothing to forgive. She didn’t do anything wrong.