“a child that’s being abused by its parents doesn’t stop loving its parents, it stops loving itself” –Shahida Arabi

The first time I read this quote I cried. It was exactly what I was feeling.
Even though I have a loving mom who tried to make me the most confident girl in the world, this quote is so true.
I have a huge lack of self-confidence; I stopped loving myself a long time ago; I replaced the love with hate. I tried to love both of my parents, I really did.

I tried to be a good daughter. I tried to listen and do what is right. But the abuse never stopped.
The secrets I kept. The choices my father made...

I tried to love you but give me one good reason why I should…
You kept hurting us. Emotionally, physically.

You took the love from me, I filled the emptiness with hate.
And look at me now, you can't hurt us anymore
And I can't stop hurting myself.

I needed you
And you took everything away
Tired and sad did you leave me in this empty space
Only a knife as a present, just in case

Now I understand the way things went
You fucked up pretty bad
Things would have been different if all this happened in the present

Written by ~Namasté allday~