Today is exactly 40 weeks ago that the sexual abuse has stopped.

It’s over. Ten years of hell are over and I’m safe now. I’m free. It’s both beautiful and wonderful. It’s also hard but I have the chance to start a new life now, and I see this as my second chance. I’m dedicated and I got this; I can start over and build up a life without sexual abuse. Any form of abuse, not only sexual abuse, also the mental abuse. I now have a life full of love and support, a life full of beautiful things. Of course there are extremely hard things too, but I get through it, every time. Because I realized that it’s all temporary. Time will pass, and nevertheless the horrible thoughts, I enjoy every good moment twice as much.  And it’s working.

In the first place I wouldn’t say I love my life because I have a lot of pain and a lot of traumas to get through, and I’m struggling a lot. But when I think a little bit longer about this, I realize that I do love my life.

In the first place I wouldn’t say I love my life because I have a lot of pain and a lot of traumas to get through, and I’m struggling a lot. But when I think a little bit longer about this, I realize that I do love my life. I love the people, the animals, the music, the weather, and the food. I love seeing my pets growing up (yup, I’m a proud dog mommy, who also has three cats and a bunny). I love learning more about life. I love learning more about me. I love understanding myself and I love to be able to communicate with myself again in a non-destructive way. I cannot describe how thankful I am for my new life. And it proves this: It CAN get better, hard times do not last forever. Everything in the world is constantly changing so all our emotions are temporarily. You can heal. I’m not there yet; I have a long way to go but I will get there. I know healing is possible. I have seen it with my own eyes. Just keep believing and fighting and loving.