What does it mean to heal?

Does it mean I'll no longer feel?
That I'll be happy at last and at peace?
No longer bothered or in his reach?
No longer angry, hurt, or sad?
Forgiving all things that were bad?
No, dear one unfortunately not
Heaven and hell will be brought
The path to heal is a war and a fight
Only you hold the power and sight
Mountains and hills you will have to climb
Some days high, others low at times
Some days happy, fulfilled and new
Others depressed, shamed and blue
Healing is not a destination we reach
It is a journey we daily seek
Healing is not free or handed to you
You have to want it and fight for truth
The truth that healing is possible
Because pain at times makes us illogical
Feeling that we will never get better
We'll never be strong and healthier
I am my single worst enemy
Tearing myself down mentally
Only I can seek healing for me
No one else, it's my responsibility
Only I can look my pain in the face
Decide for myself I will beat this race
I choose to not be defined by my past
Create a new me that's healthy at last
Not all days are perfect and great
The path to healing is never straight
It has curves and ups and downs
A constant choice not to drown
Strength is given deep in our souls
Find it, embrace it, and become whole